When I Let My Fear Go, I Was Finally Free From My Relationship

This is a story about letting go of a relationship I was once afraid to do, which ultimately became the best decision I have made.

Letting go of my relationship was a major opportunity to free myself

I have been dating Kevin for five years now. He is awesome, amazing, and phenomenal. He’s so cool, athletic and makes good money. He’s extremely generous and treats people with kindness. He checks all the boxes on paper but I always had a gut feeling that he’s not the right person for me.

Instead of listening to the gut feeling, I continued to date him for the next four years. I cried myself to sleep every single night praying that it would work out between us. I was dwelling and holding onto an infatuation that might never happen. Kevin was in love with this ideal version of me and now that he finds out the real me, he is settling to be with me. He’s 35 years old now and wants a family — a few kids running around the house and a housewife to wake up next to for sex. We do not fight and we get along but we do not share similar beliefs, values or interests. We are compatible but not suitable for each other. I don’t think he was ever in love with the real me because he never knew the real me. Now that he did, I do not feel that our relationship is romanticized with love. It’s okay. I was so afraid of letting this relationship go when I knew it was bound to fall apart one day. I wanted…