To the friend who I almost lost…I’m sorry I ever felt this way

Junior year of college, we were 20 years old.

You were pregnant.

I thought you were joking. I could not understand why you did not use a condom.

Were you crazy.

I loved you, but I was going to lose you forever.

Then, you had a miscarriage.

I felt sad. I felt sad that you were emotionally depressed of who you lost.

But, I was selfish. I was glad to have you back.

A few months later, you were pregnant again.

At that moment, I realized you want a kid. You really wanted one.

I thought we were going to travel together, find a job together, be great friends together, embark on our 20s together.

My world shattered again. I was broken. I knew I was going to lose.

No more graduation. No more parties. No more meeting boys. No more youth…

Your life is going to revolve around your baby.

It’s not a bad thing; it’s never a bad thing.

It’s just a different path.

1 year later, we meet again.

I realized no one understands me like you do.

It takes time to bond, it takes time for trust, and it takes time to understand.

I’m glad I have you back.

I know things will continue to be different, but I admire how you don’t let anything hinder you otherwise.

You’re a strong friend, woman, mother, person who I see now.

Thank you.

Thank you for being there for me.