I run when things get difficult..

Something I’ve always struggled with is..my instinct has always been flight (flight v. fight). “She’s a runner, she’s a track star. She gon’ run away when it gets hard.” Communication and directly addressing my issues has always been my pain points; I’m an avoider at best and I run away when things get tough. Running away makes me feel comfortable yet it throws off the opposing party.

You shouldn’t say sorry Peter. I have had a lot of faults prior but I don’t think I should have been treated the way I have. I agree…once I’ve decided and put my mind into something, it’s hard changing me. I’m hard to love, hard to befriend with, and sometimes really difficult to deal with but those who want me in their life would understand and stay by me no matter how hard it gets.

I wanna say yes, I deserved it. I deserved how you reacted and treated me but you were a complete asshole in your kind of way. I was someone who didn’t know how to navigate situations and lessened my conversations with you but you were in an entire different level. You were being a complete dick and I’m saying sorry but I think you owe me an apology too, which you have given me.

In all honestly, I don’t think things will ever be the same as it was before because I also don’t want that anymore. I don’t want to be how readily available we were towards each other, nor do I want…